i have decided..
juz todae.. i would not have made this decision so clearly and surely if not for tat phone call. u might not have known, how much i wanted to juz shout tat i quit straight in the phone rite then.
before tat phone call i told myself tat i would go through this for my frens, myself and the team. but after tat phone call, i knew exactly wat i wanted to do and wat i had to do. and so u will noe tmr.
i will not care anymore. this is wat i want. i cnt put up wif u anymore. wats wif ur attitude. i am not some chess piece of urs to move as u lyk. i am not someone u can push over and think its ok.
i will quit and continue wif my carnival. i had wanted to give in and give up the carnival. but not anymore. u drove me to desperation and this is wat i will do when i am driven to desperation.
i noe i have to do this. u reap wat u sow. this is wat u wan? whether or not it is, this is wat u are getting. i wont let myself be subjected to this. not anymore. i wont be so stupid and let myself be manipulated by u, i have a brain which i will use to think.
this decision is not and will not be influenced by anyone. i have set my mind on it and this is wat i will do. no persuasion, no threatening will work. and juz a reminder, threatening is nvr going to work on me. it juz makes me see things clear, see wat a person u are. so i might as well leave now and not leave regrets for myself in my future. this decision too, will not leave me wif any regrets.
so..this is it. the turning point. the change.
i'm sry to my frens if this decision of mine will affect u alot. but tis is wat i really wan. its not tat i dun lyk canoeing or my heart is no longer in canoeing. but i noe tat i will not be able to put up wif this anymore. not her freaking attitude. not her pushy character, so i have to do this. u ppl noe tat once i have made a decision and set my mind on it, its not easy to change it so i juz hope tat u will support me in this.